I don't know what to say here, I guess I could say get ready for a big "FML" stage right about now..........


So well... My mom died 8 months back and all, My dad's mentally abusive, and hes possibly dying within the next year, were losing the house, I'm most likely getting separated from my brother and uncle, dealing with all the nagging the school has been giving me, and to top it off, I feel really alone. Like, It's not intentional at all, And my friend's are there for me, but the best friends I have, I barely talk to.
Like Kimm for example, we exchange very little words, every day or two, and mainly when I call, she doesn't pick up or can't. And ever sense she moved I've felt that I was going to be replaced and sure enough, I can already see it starting to happen.
My brother, is completely stressed out to the point you could probably admit him in a hospital to calm down. He need's to see a therapist, but can't because he has no insurance, He has the responsibility of the house in his hands, which he knows that sooner or later we're going to lose. He also has back pain, and problems with his legs, and to top it off, he has to deal with me and my dad arguing every damn second.
Any of my other friend's I could hardly even place in the going to for support friends. Unless you want to bring Lani into the situation, But she moved to another part of the city, so I don't even get to see her.
My school, complaining about my attendance, well fuck you too school, I really couldn't care less If I went there or not.
My future? I can honestly say that I'm gonna make it to about 15-16 before I go crazy and over dose. Or maybe I'll get lucky and starve myself.
But out of the suicidal talk, let's discuss holidays, Thanksgiving perhaps.
So my thanksgiving I wake up at 3 am to my dad screaming for my brother, to take him to the hospital, we told him in the daytime... I wake up and next thing I know, it's 2:45pm were riding in an ambulance. So from 3-7 were in the ER while their doing copious amounts of test's and examinations on my dad. Then from 7-12, he's in surgery, leaving us to walk 3 1/2 miles home and arrive at about 1:30am. What a great way to spend the holidays right?
Now for Christmas, well, We can't afford Christmas this year, let alone food for next month. And even with all that gone, we don't even know how to pay the many many bill's we have. So well, "FML" over, Good night.